Over 4 months AF

So I’m past the 4 month mark, the AF thing is going pretty good but losing the extra pounds.. .? Not so much! I do well for a few days and then I eat a bunch of garbage, feel like shit, eat more garbage, get myself back on track and repeat cycle! So frustrating! I’ve been eating more plant based recently which (when I stick to it) seems to make me feel a lot better, more energy, less bloated, better sleep… kind of like how going AF makes one feel! I’ve been doing a lot of biking, I signed up for a bike ride in the fall that will take me across Prince Edward Island via the confederation trail, approx 250km in 5 days! Super excited to check that off my bucket list! I’ve had the odd moment (mostly when sitting on the deck on a sunny afternoon) where I have that moment of “a glass of wine would be great right now”, but I know that it really wouldn’t make it any more enjoyable and would make me feel like crap the next day. I just miss feeling relaxed I think, I’ve finally come to the conclusion that that is the main reason I liked wine so much, I just don’t seem to be able to quiet my brain down… I have always been like this but didn’t realize how much it affects me some times and that being in overdrive all of the time maybe isn’t that great lol. Oh well, something I’m working on that I will hopefully figure out eventually! For now I’ll just keep trying and being happy that biking and running seems to help 🙂

One thought on “Over 4 months AF

  1. Congrats on 4 months! I totally get that “missing feeling relaxed” feeling, but I think that was a falsehood anyway. I don’t think we were actually relaxed with our wine, we were just dulling our senses. I think I’ve come to realize, I never learned how to “sit” with moments and feelings unless they felt good. As in, I used alcohol to change my mood rather than learn how to deal with all the different moods that there are. Now, alcohol-free – I’m realizing I have to learn how to do that in a healthier way! Bah! always something new to learn, right?!


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